current lusts...

I have been abstaining from shopping. Okay, I admit I did go shopping for KUSA Mixer, BUT what I mean is like shopping every other week. Sigh. It really is hard to not spend money. I'm trying so hard, and I feel like I am failing. --;; Either way, here's what I'm lusting for the season.

I can't find a coat like this anywhere. H&M had a camel color one in one of their lookbooks, but I have failed to see it in the stores. Oh, and when I do find another one, the price is out of my budget range (even my "I can splurge and swipe my credit card for this" budget). Sigh. 

I actually really like the Jimmy Choo + Ugg collection. Too bad this is also out of my budget range. $595 retail. Geez. 

I <3 shoes. 'Nuff said. 

Okay, so this is all I have for now. I shall add to this later. 

from my textbook...

"If you do drink alcoholic beverages, then stay with the same drink--don't mix them (two different types are grape and grain--that is, wine and spirits). That's when trouble really begins and hangovers are bad."

puhahahahahahahahaha. currently reading for my Introduction to Hospitality Management book. haha.

time to be a hater...

i hate guys. don't get me wrong..i do love my boyfriend. he's really great. he's turned out to be something completely opposite of what i imagined him as. but it's the love game, perhaps, that i don't like. for instance, when i look at my friends dealing with guys now. why do guys play so much? honestly, i've become wiser enough to know that guys really aren't stupid when it comes to girls. i mean there have been a countless number of times where i have complained about guys being stupid and not knowing about how much i like them blah blah blah. i think we've all heard this or said this before, but as i get older, what i notice is that guys really aren't dumb and oblivious. sure, there are exceptions, but for the majority guys really do know. guys can decipher the way a girl is acting as, "oh yeah, she's got something for me," and play accordingly. i not only came up with this conclusion on my quest for my current boyfriend (he also told me guys do this too), but i just notice it more and more now that i am not single and i see my friends playing this love game. i feel like girls know this information, yet they let themselves get fooled too much all because we want that feeling of love. there are plenty more other girls i know where the guys are playing around with them either to be nice or just to get some easy ass and the girls keep playing their game. no longer do i think guys are dumb when it comes to the opposite sex, but us, girls, are the dumb ones. we, like idiots, let these guys toy with our hearts and emotions, fill us up with dumb butterflies that shouldn't be in our stomachs, maybe fall into the occasional hook up here and there thinking it's on the right way to love, and then when the guy disappears or stops calling we're the ones left stumped crying to our other girlfriends about what a jackass he is. i think we set ourselves up for it, honestly. for instance the point of he's just not that into you is that...he's just not that into you. it's true, if he really wanted you to be his girl, you would be his. yet, we, as the friend supporter can't tell our friends straight up what we see. we have no objectivity in the situation because the guy hurt OUR friend. we encourage our girls saying it's okay when it really isn't. we say, "oh, he doesn't know what he's missing," and when it could be true, we're just so stuck on what we don't have that we can't even give the chance for someone that should have us to have it. does this make sense or am i rambling? sigh...i just don't want to do hw and then i started thinking about this and now i have no point of where it's going anymore. go figure. bottom line is...guys aren't dumb. girls, we have to play smarter because you have to admit this game isn't going anywhere. why, when we can conquer every other obstacle that has gotten in the way of a female, are we still letting guys run the show? why are we getting so foolish in love too quickly when, first, we have a long life ahead of us (at least people that around my age), and second, most guys that we encounter aren't looking for a life long partner yet. i feel like girls my age are trying too hard to get into that married lifestyle, and i'm not just talking about living with your significant other. it's the comfort factor of being in a married relationship that girls are seeking too fast. we're expecting boys to want that feeling of a secure, married life, and if you haven't noticed, guys are not looking for that right now. i think we've gotten it into our heads that we have to settle down now. so girls, just lay back and don't take your relationships, or lack therof (whether you know it or not), seriously. most of the time, the guy really is looking for some pussy. so i think we, as girls, should keep the married mentality aside and have fun. you really wanna settle down with someone now and spend the next 50+ years with them? don't get me wrong, if you're at that stage, then, all the more power to you, there are exceptions to everything (the movie/book he's just not that into you even explains this), i'm just trying to keep it real.

if you don't know me well enough already...

I LOVE SHOES.
like forrealllssss....I LOVE SHOES. for those that do know me well enough, you would also know that i own a bajillion pairs of shoes as well. some that haven't been worn yet even though they are couple of years old, and some that have only seen the light of day once or twice. my boyfriend yells at me all the time when i get a new pair. he's always like, "why don't you buy a new pair when those have been worn out?" guys...they just don't understand the love relationship girls have with accessories other than clothes; shoes, handbags, wallets, jewelry, etc. i suppose it is because there really isn't practicality for these items in large quantities. like this purse i want to buy...banana taipei's version of the birkin bag...but mas always insists..."you have a bunch of purses in your closet that you don't even use." to quote one of my favorite movies, the devil wears prada, "but it's pretty..." when the boyfriend of the main character was criticizing women for having too many handbags. but it's true...the vast amounts of shoes and handbags (i'm guilty of this too) are sooooo pretty. sigh. the feeling of buying the perfect purse and the perfect fitting heels is orgasmic, short-lived yet exciting. either way...i was just posting to show my newest pair of heels. hahaha. and the purse that i want and some new shoes i would love to own from jeffrey campbell. sigh. love. haha.


my newest pair of wedges. i held off on getting these until i saw them on sale. haha. i'm actually replacing my black steve madden wedges with these. the rain in korea fucked up my other wedges. --;;

ordered this from target. its the new mulberry from target collection. me gusta mucho!!! haha.

i want!!!! the birkin from banana taipei. sigh...this is why mas yells at me all the time.


and i just love jeffrey campbell. i adore their shoes. def top five shoe brand along with steve madden, michael kors, ysl, and kenzie.

gahhhh....if i won the lottery, i would buy all the shoes i want and build a separate closet for them. sigh. i want the sex and the city movie closet. haha.
alright done with my "study break."

So I think the creators of The Sims had it right...

Has anyone ever played the reality game of The Sims? It was a big hit when The Sims 2 came out. I don't think I ever played the second version, but as far as the relationship status goes, isn't it the same? You know, the little bar below the face of a neighbor/friend/lover that indicates your status. The more full the bar, the more intimate the relationship. The less full the bar, the better the likelihood that y'all are only acquaintances or the relationship has gotten cold. The key to filling up your relationship bar is to have continuous interaction with the other party by calling, visiting, etc. A lot of times I think the same way about my relationships. Like when I think of a friend I haven't talked to in a while, I imagine that imaginary relationship indicator and how full my bar is. Has the bar filled up more or is it getting emptier? I have a lot of friends, and I do expect my friends to feel the same about me regardless if I hang out with them or talk to them everyday. I guess I'm lucky to have friends where we can pick up where we left off last, but not everyone is as lucky as me. Some people get really offended when their friend drops off the radar for a bit. I'm not intentionally dropping off. I'm just so busy right now that I don't know how to juggle friends. I'm so busy that I can't even juggle doing housework right now. Can't you just imagine how messy my place is right now?
18 hours this semester. 2 jobs. A dog. A one bedroom apartment. A boyfriend. My mother. That is the full extent of my life right now. I really am making an effort to put friends in that combination. ALL my friends, not just the ones I see at volleyball or randomly around school.
Time management is tough. Sigh.