A day and a half in one.

So I did not make a post yesterday. To tell you the truth, I did really bad this day. I couldn't fight the munchies haha.
I started my morning with a grilled havarti and spinach sandwich with a apple and eve juice box. I went babysitting and ate a handful of wheat thins. Maybe two handfuls haha. I had water. For lunch, we ate a salad, two onigiri rice balls, and two chicken nuggets. lol. For dinner, I finished off with a spinach and chicken salad with evoo and balsamic. Also more water. For my evening snack, I ate a lot of clementine's.
For exercise, I took my dog to the park and walked in those Skecher shoes but mine are a knockoff so yeah...haha.

Today, I started the morning off with water and a grilled havarti, tomato, and spinach sandwich. I caved and got Starbucks this morning (my justification is that I have money on my Starbucks card lol). At work, I had a juice box, nutrigrain bar, and turkey, cheese, spinach sandwich. I had a bottle of water, and I can't remember what I drank with my breakfast. Either a juice box or water. haha. I have dinner and a snack left!!

Trying something new...

So my boyfriend has been in San Francisco since Christmas Eve, and I told myself that that would be the mark of my diet. Of course, I have been unsuccessful thus far. Kind of how unsuccessful I've been with cleaning my apartment (still have to organize my room and do my laundry). It's been worse.
Anyways, today is now Tuesday. Christmas Eve was last Friday. So no more excuses. I am going to blog a food diary. I've tried to keep up with one on my iPhone, but that too has been unsuccessful. I'm hoping that having something to post everyday will help me keep this blog alive and really keep track of what goes into my mouth (no pun intended).

As of 9:18 AM today, Tuesday, December 28, I have eaten....
Grande, Triple, Nonfat, No Whip, Extra Hot Caramel Brulee Latte
-Now, I know Starbucks is not an ideal coffee choice while on a diet, but for one, this is a vice. Two, it's their seasonal drink and the Starbucks next to my house has already ran out, so I am on a quest to go to different Starbucks to enjoy this drink as much as possible. It's horrible. I have been supporting this economy with my Starbucks addiction. An addiction that I have caved into since the beginning of their Pumpkin Spice Latte.
Small/Medium Sized Korean Sweet Potato
-I bought these to start the 2AM diet buttttt haven't gotten to doing it yet. --;;
11:55 AM
Spinach, Ham, Havarti on Wheat Sandwich
-I have made a realization to stop drinking Starbucks. I'm going broke.
Apple & Eve Organic Juice Box
**So much for keeping up with a food diary. haha.**
I finished this night with 1/4 rack of ribs and potato salad. I know it was a bad choice, but it was delicious. haha. I really need to stop hosting guests.


Now, it is just the beginning of my day. I am currently drinking water. I plan on going to Whole Foods and the park with my dog and friend today. If I'm lucky I will be organizing the rest of my apartment today. Be back here after I eat something else. LOL.

current lusts...

I have been abstaining from shopping. Okay, I admit I did go shopping for KUSA Mixer, BUT what I mean is like shopping every other week. Sigh. It really is hard to not spend money. I'm trying so hard, and I feel like I am failing. --;; Either way, here's what I'm lusting for the season.

I can't find a coat like this anywhere. H&M had a camel color one in one of their lookbooks, but I have failed to see it in the stores. Oh, and when I do find another one, the price is out of my budget range (even my "I can splurge and swipe my credit card for this" budget). Sigh. 

I actually really like the Jimmy Choo + Ugg collection. Too bad this is also out of my budget range. $595 retail. Geez. 

I <3 shoes. 'Nuff said. 

Okay, so this is all I have for now. I shall add to this later. 

from my textbook...

"If you do drink alcoholic beverages, then stay with the same drink--don't mix them (two different types are grape and grain--that is, wine and spirits). That's when trouble really begins and hangovers are bad."

puhahahahahahahahaha. currently reading for my Introduction to Hospitality Management book. haha.

time to be a hater...

i hate guys. don't get me wrong..i do love my boyfriend. he's really great. he's turned out to be something completely opposite of what i imagined him as. but it's the love game, perhaps, that i don't like. for instance, when i look at my friends dealing with guys now. why do guys play so much? honestly, i've become wiser enough to know that guys really aren't stupid when it comes to girls. i mean there have been a countless number of times where i have complained about guys being stupid and not knowing about how much i like them blah blah blah. i think we've all heard this or said this before, but as i get older, what i notice is that guys really aren't dumb and oblivious. sure, there are exceptions, but for the majority guys really do know. guys can decipher the way a girl is acting as, "oh yeah, she's got something for me," and play accordingly. i not only came up with this conclusion on my quest for my current boyfriend (he also told me guys do this too), but i just notice it more and more now that i am not single and i see my friends playing this love game. i feel like girls know this information, yet they let themselves get fooled too much all because we want that feeling of love. there are plenty more other girls i know where the guys are playing around with them either to be nice or just to get some easy ass and the girls keep playing their game. no longer do i think guys are dumb when it comes to the opposite sex, but us, girls, are the dumb ones. we, like idiots, let these guys toy with our hearts and emotions, fill us up with dumb butterflies that shouldn't be in our stomachs, maybe fall into the occasional hook up here and there thinking it's on the right way to love, and then when the guy disappears or stops calling we're the ones left stumped crying to our other girlfriends about what a jackass he is. i think we set ourselves up for it, honestly. for instance the point of he's just not that into you is that...he's just not that into you. it's true, if he really wanted you to be his girl, you would be his. yet, we, as the friend supporter can't tell our friends straight up what we see. we have no objectivity in the situation because the guy hurt OUR friend. we encourage our girls saying it's okay when it really isn't. we say, "oh, he doesn't know what he's missing," and when it could be true, we're just so stuck on what we don't have that we can't even give the chance for someone that should have us to have it. does this make sense or am i rambling? sigh...i just don't want to do hw and then i started thinking about this and now i have no point of where it's going anymore. go figure. bottom line is...guys aren't dumb. girls, we have to play smarter because you have to admit this game isn't going anywhere. why, when we can conquer every other obstacle that has gotten in the way of a female, are we still letting guys run the show? why are we getting so foolish in love too quickly when, first, we have a long life ahead of us (at least people that around my age), and second, most guys that we encounter aren't looking for a life long partner yet. i feel like girls my age are trying too hard to get into that married lifestyle, and i'm not just talking about living with your significant other. it's the comfort factor of being in a married relationship that girls are seeking too fast. we're expecting boys to want that feeling of a secure, married life, and if you haven't noticed, guys are not looking for that right now. i think we've gotten it into our heads that we have to settle down now. so girls, just lay back and don't take your relationships, or lack therof (whether you know it or not), seriously. most of the time, the guy really is looking for some pussy. so i think we, as girls, should keep the married mentality aside and have fun. you really wanna settle down with someone now and spend the next 50+ years with them? don't get me wrong, if you're at that stage, then, all the more power to you, there are exceptions to everything (the movie/book he's just not that into you even explains this), i'm just trying to keep it real.

if you don't know me well enough already...

I LOVE SHOES.
like forrealllssss....I LOVE SHOES. for those that do know me well enough, you would also know that i own a bajillion pairs of shoes as well. some that haven't been worn yet even though they are couple of years old, and some that have only seen the light of day once or twice. my boyfriend yells at me all the time when i get a new pair. he's always like, "why don't you buy a new pair when those have been worn out?" guys...they just don't understand the love relationship girls have with accessories other than clothes; shoes, handbags, wallets, jewelry, etc. i suppose it is because there really isn't practicality for these items in large quantities. like this purse i want to buy...banana taipei's version of the birkin bag...but mas always insists..."you have a bunch of purses in your closet that you don't even use." to quote one of my favorite movies, the devil wears prada, "but it's pretty..." when the boyfriend of the main character was criticizing women for having too many handbags. but it's true...the vast amounts of shoes and handbags (i'm guilty of this too) are sooooo pretty. sigh. the feeling of buying the perfect purse and the perfect fitting heels is orgasmic, short-lived yet exciting. either way...i was just posting to show my newest pair of heels. hahaha. and the purse that i want and some new shoes i would love to own from jeffrey campbell. sigh. love. haha.


my newest pair of wedges. i held off on getting these until i saw them on sale. haha. i'm actually replacing my black steve madden wedges with these. the rain in korea fucked up my other wedges. --;;

ordered this from target. its the new mulberry from target collection. me gusta mucho!!! haha.

i want!!!! the birkin from banana taipei. sigh...this is why mas yells at me all the time.


and i just love jeffrey campbell. i adore their shoes. def top five shoe brand along with steve madden, michael kors, ysl, and kenzie.

gahhhh....if i won the lottery, i would buy all the shoes i want and build a separate closet for them. sigh. i want the sex and the city movie closet. haha.
alright done with my "study break."

So I think the creators of The Sims had it right...

Has anyone ever played the reality game of The Sims? It was a big hit when The Sims 2 came out. I don't think I ever played the second version, but as far as the relationship status goes, isn't it the same? You know, the little bar below the face of a neighbor/friend/lover that indicates your status. The more full the bar, the more intimate the relationship. The less full the bar, the better the likelihood that y'all are only acquaintances or the relationship has gotten cold. The key to filling up your relationship bar is to have continuous interaction with the other party by calling, visiting, etc. A lot of times I think the same way about my relationships. Like when I think of a friend I haven't talked to in a while, I imagine that imaginary relationship indicator and how full my bar is. Has the bar filled up more or is it getting emptier? I have a lot of friends, and I do expect my friends to feel the same about me regardless if I hang out with them or talk to them everyday. I guess I'm lucky to have friends where we can pick up where we left off last, but not everyone is as lucky as me. Some people get really offended when their friend drops off the radar for a bit. I'm not intentionally dropping off. I'm just so busy right now that I don't know how to juggle friends. I'm so busy that I can't even juggle doing housework right now. Can't you just imagine how messy my place is right now?
18 hours this semester. 2 jobs. A dog. A one bedroom apartment. A boyfriend. My mother. That is the full extent of my life right now. I really am making an effort to put friends in that combination. ALL my friends, not just the ones I see at volleyball or randomly around school.
Time management is tough. Sigh.

no more mr. nice guy...

there's a difference between being nice and helping people. i like helping people. call me self-centered, but it makes me feel good about myself knowing i potentially brightened up someone's day. hence, why i try to say hi and smile as much as i can because a smile can go a long way. however, im tired of being nice, and getting run over. do i look that easy to be taken advantage of? and i don't mean sexually. sigh. i love to help. i really even like to be nice, but so long are the days of being, "oh tina? yeah, she's really nice." i'm going back to high school, call me childish or not, but i had fun being mean. even if it seemed to be judgmental, i knew who my real friends were at the time, and my friends don't judge me as people do. so for those that missed the old tina, say hello to her again.

Korea...

So...been busy with work, so I haven't had much chance to go out and snap pictures of my adventures, or lack thereof. However, that will all change when I pick up my camera today. Yay...I've been playing with my film cameras though, and I'm looking really forward to developing those. I'm hoping to keep this blog active or more active than it has been since its creation. Stay tuned...

Sorry for the lack of posts...I have finally found my computer at a place with a faster internet connection than I do at home. But....
Finally!! After much contemplation, I've decided to post what I like to wear even though I don't get the opportunity to wear heels everyday, or I guess I refuse to walk around campus and babysitting in heels. I wouldn't mind so much watching kids in heels, but I just don't want the parents to think I'm crazy or something. I feel like they do so well already with my piercings and tattoos...

I really need to find a better picture taking medium. Until then...my iPhone will suffice. 

Such a noob... I know. Haha. 

end. 

i just want to feel numb to the world...

what do you like to hear?

i've embarked on a "find myself" journey. i'm hoping to kind of "figure it out" by spring break/first week of march. it's unrealistic to i guess truly find yourself, but i just need some space from this chaotic world or things that make my world chaotic. this shall be enlightening. i'm hoping to better my mind, better my body, and better myself. figuratively and literally. to quote the magic 8 ball, "outlook is good." 

one of my definite plans is to get back into my hobbies...including photography and longboarding, so hopefully this blog will be full of my adventures in picture. 

be back soon.